“Anything is possible”

So if anyone is/was late to the party .... I am officially in REMISSION and CANCER FREE!  Dr. Hamlin and his amazing team managed to juice me with that much Chemo that my amazing insides and mental state beat Cancer half way through treatment!!! Weeeeeeeeee!  As mentioned in an earlier blog, I wasn’t sure which way my brain was going to go on this. But now that I have the official call I am truly happy and blessed!  The day of my telehealth was great.  I wasn’t too emotional at all. Maybe because Cancer made me a cold bitch 😂 kidding ... let’s just say it made me more of a hard ass. Not many emotions for things lately except for watermelon.  Jillian (one of my nurses) went over all the deets and was very happy with the outcome. Of course I did inquire about adjusting the Chemo just a bit but because they treated me in eight treatments there wasn’t any room to adjust.  I get it. Moving on.... I proceeded to call and text just enough of my crew that it would...

So today is a big day. Today is my half way point. The PET scan will determine if the Cancer is still looming or gone!  I honestly don’t know how to feel. Obviously I will be happy if the Lymphoma is gone! But the thought of it being gone and then having to do four more treatments of chemo... fucking hell! Then there is the side of it still being in my body which is OK and plowing through the next four chemos like a beast.  IDK it’s weird to think of this way but if it’s gone then why more chemo? Obviously I have asked Dr. Hamlin that on our initial meeting and obviously I know why I have to finish... but there is a part of me that’s holding onto this hope of me being super natural and the Dr. saying “you’re so amazing you don’t have to finish”. Wishful thinking! They will have to drag me to the next four appointments that’s for sure! Again this is where my head is at right now. And my head is a mess. The past few weeks have been really dark.  My mind and body changes fro...