Chemo Cuts

So today was a good day... no actually it was a great day, probably until I got a stress headache in the afternoon but I digress.  Today was a great day. Today I got a hair cut.  I needed it. Not just for the ends of my hair but mentally I needed just a normal day. A day for myself. A day of feeling good and feeling pretty (thank you Miguel). Because honestly, I’ve been looking like a sea monster lately because I can only wash my hair every two to four days, no blow outs and I have to use baby shampoo which can be a little tough on this mane of mine.

Let’s talk hair loss and chemo and what could be in store for me ...

I have a 10% chance of losing my hair completely with this treatment. 10% is strong BUT low. I could lose in patches of my head, it can thin, it could look crazy.. sky is the limit when it comes to hair but everyone is different so the doctors can not confirm. All they can confirm is the above and the rate. Hair loss begins after your first treatment. Anywhere between 1-4 weeks. It falls out slowly, not all at once or it can fall out at the very end of treatment as well. Again it’s a gamble.  Do I understand that I could possibly lose my hair? YES. Am I mentally there? NO.  I’m trying not to think about it, although I have to. I’m living day to day on the hair thing/issue. I did get a trim today but I didn’t go nuts and pull a Britney Spears and shave my head and beat a car with an umbrella (that rage has subsided in me a month or so ago).  Dr. Hamlin made it a point to tell me “please do not go out and shave your head right out of the gate, you may not lose your hair.”  So my plan is to treat my hair as is, per the rules of all things hair with chemo, trim it up to keep it healthy and take it from there. 

Today was about normalcy... not about cutting my hair off or even cutting it two inches shorter. I’m a creature of routine.  When I’m not in my routine such as now, I get a little off balanced. I know how to adjust but it’s tough. Today was about getting back into a routine and what better way to do that is going to a salon and having a me day. Not only was it about going to the salon but it was about leaving the cave (my house). Putting on some light make-up, a real bra or a bra for that matter, pants, shirt, sneakers and a purse!! Yes, I took a purse. I needed it. Plus it was a positive mental reinforcement for my second treatment tomorrow. Feeling Good... Like I should. 

Now off to bed with my silk pillow case in tow to preserve these locks. Another big day tomorrow.  Round 2 / Cycle 1 ✔️